bad attitude

hi..long time din update my blog dy...
muahahah..
finally holiday lurr..
bt is da same 4 me la..
haha...still gaming no study...
even study aso jus last 4 an hour...
duno y da thg i try to memories...alw gone wen i do ques..
izzit i reali canot study??
i duno oo....
nagging thg cum agian....haiz...
y my "lao mao bing" alw around wan..
y until now i still canot change wan..
las time dy warn by sum1...
scoldin my bad attitude...i say i will change...
bt las,,,i still da same..
izzit sum1 attitude n sikap canoot change???
who knw???
reali hate myslf le leeeeeee....
y i m suc type of ppl..i reali hate a lot...
omg..nagging starting...
i hav to stop myslf le la....
recently i get sick...i ny realise ther a lot of ppl siak me n care me wan..
y i alw blaming tat no1 care me???
i m stupid izzit..o i jus shen zai fu zong bu zhi fu ba....
mayb both of it ...
tat time i jus lost one of my close frend ...reali feel guilty 4 wat i m doin
misunderstanding ..all bcos myslf thk too muc..
made an angel of mine fly away...
i m quite sad bout it...
anw...i m so lucky..i get another best frend tat cud listen to me n accompany me...
bt then i reali scared da same thg happen again..
being scared of mine nagging...my blaming n everythg...
i try not to do tat again..
bt wen i m sad n unhapi, my bad attitude cum again..
tat make myslf irritated suntimes...
i reali hope reali gt sumone can stand all my bad attitude..
listen to me...n alw stand on my side..
bt i thk is imposible..
even i get a bf aso,i canot wish tat wud happen
bt i canot wish tat..every1 is different ,
n no1 born to jao who n take care who ...
tat wish wun fullfilled
all i can do is just to change myslf..not to nagging
jus reali hope can kick away da attitude as soon as posible..
haiz..
tat all 4 2 day...
hope everythg will b fine..
wish myslf hapi every day..
n all of my frend..god bless u all..
n reali thanks u all care me so much..
love ta